Shotgun-Charlie wrote:I've been having them regularly for the past two months since my girlfriend and I broke up. We've been with each other for 2 1/2 years. I live in Minnesota, far, far from home. I have no friends to confide in yet apart from her, and I can't really just breakdown in front of her for the upteenth-billionth time. I've been miserable, fighting the urge to spill my guts here on the thread about it.
I'm in a similar situation. It's been over two months since my ex moved out and I am still totally fucking miserable. Our break-up was so harrowing that I absolutely can't stop thinking about it all day and all night. There are days when I almost feel alright and then there are nights like last night. I did not sleep a wink. At all. I was in a great mood when I hit the bed, but I somehow managed to work myself into a frenzy over this stupid bullshit and I have yet to fully recover (watching
It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown didn't even help my mood! It actually made me sadder...). I know it's my own fault for dwelling on something that I have absolutely no control over, but I cannot help myself.
I've tried exercise. I've been seeing a psychologist for three weeks. I am trying to make new friends and actually leave my house once in a while. It's not helping much. I have been debating the possibility of getting medicated for weeks now and, after last night, the debate is over. I'm going for it. Fuck it. I'd rather be a zombie than spend my nights fantasizing about how great it would be to kill myself just to spite some girl who cheated on me and doesn't even care if I live or die.
So...yeah. Good luck, big guy. Just remember that it could always be worse...