Sending warm thoughts your way Jeff.

Losing a pet isn’t like losing a family member; it IS losing a family member, and that was a particularly hard way to have to say goodbye. I am not too far removed from that loss myself and while it still feels like a piece of my life is missing, it is comforting to remember the time we spent together, making each other’s lives better.

penningtron wrote: Fri Feb 21, 2025 4:24 pm

rsmurphy wrote: Fri Feb 21, 2025 4:17 pm I'm so sorry, Jeff. Benny was the best.

Yep, playful lil dude. Reading thru that post I was afraid you didn't make it back in time, but was relieved you at least got some final moments. Ugh.. it's the worst feeling.

Heartfelt condolences to you and your husband, Jeff.

Thanks for the kind words, everybody. We'll be alright, for now we're just trying to get through the part where everywhere we look brings another flash of something we'll never get to see again with Benny.
Dogs are the absolute fucking best beings. Pure love.

jeff fox wrote: Sat Feb 22, 2025 6:46 pm Thanks for the kind words, everybody. We'll be alright, for now we're just trying to get through the part where everywhere we look brings another flash of something we'll never get to see again with Benny.
Dogs are the absolute fucking best beings. Pure love.

I do love our cats. We've had six, half of them dorking around the house right now.

But one of the reasons I've never gotten a dog is that I love them too much to have one.

And I think the fact that I would almost for sure have to watch them die is part of it.

thinking of you guys since i saw it on instagram. best to troy and you, jeff.

please don't let the cats know i said that.

eephus wrote: Sat Feb 22, 2025 11:00 pm please don't let the cats know i said that.

Spoiler: They wouldn't care.

Frankie99 wrote: Mon Feb 24, 2025 6:09 pm

eephus wrote: Sat Feb 22, 2025 11:00 pm please don't let the cats know i said that.

Spoiler: They wouldn't care.

if they're anything like mine they would.

Jeff man, I just read this post. FUCK I love you and Troy so much. That pain is the worst. You're both in our hearts through this.

Hex wrote: Fri Feb 28, 2025 2:37 pm i am in so much pain and it’s not letting up, i’m scared, i’m tired, i hate this awful world so much, i want all the suffering to end forever so much, it’s not fair and it hurts

you are right, it's not fair. i wish i had some words of comfort. i hope you get some relief soon.

Not having enough capacity for this moment, and feeling guilty about it, is definitely a thing. We got some real punch-in-the-gut, unexpected news on Tues that'll shake up our lives. We'll mostly be fine (which I also feel guilty about, millions of others might not be), but I probably haven't been staying up to speed on the latest ICE horrors or Trans scapegoating. I don't think my partner has slept all week. And I'm sure there will be some horror show by next week that makes this week look like a blip.

I get to see some friends tonight for the second day in a row. Ran into some other friends walking the dogs, and got invited to another thing. An hour of camaraderie here and there and maybe a few laughs definitely goes a long way.

Wife is recovering from a radical hysterectomy (stage one vaginal cancer). The doctor butchered her up real good - ripped her ureters out, etc. My entire family is ill with this nasty flu thing that everyone has. Even my old Beagle is sick.

I've started having a recurring nightmare where my wife is moving out of the house. It seems pretty obvious that subconsciously I'm afraid she's going to die. I don't have a ton of extra cash, so I can't see a therapist in the foreseeable future.

Does anyone have a night-time ritual I can steal from them? I gotta get some sleep. Thanks for reading - I appreciate it.